Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Stick a Fork in Me

Don't wish me happiness-I don't expect to be happy it's gotten beyond that, somehow. Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor-I will need them all. - Anne Morrow Lindbergh

I am not happy.

I'm not unhappy either...it's not that. It's...beyond happiness.

I've not been sleeping well again recently. I've a lot on my mind. Each night I'm consumed with thoughts on various themes and they've kept sleep from me - heartless bastards.

Today, Kris from Not a Girl, Not Yet a Wino posted an entry with the opening line "I’m trying my best in one particular aspect of my life to remain restrained, classy, appropriate."

Yes.

I'm struggling with uncharitable thoughts. There is no action to be taken and the thoughts themselves aren't anything of a Jerry Springer-esque nature surely.

They are simply statements of perception...emotional immaturity, self-centeredness, wasting of potential.

I'm tired.

And when I'm tired, I get rather apathetic toward those who probably need my sympathy...and who are unlikely to get it any time soon - especially when seeking it.

So please, ask nothing of me right now and do not wish me happiness. Wish me courage and strength and good humor. I shall need all 3.

4 comments:

PATTY LEIDYS ZERO HOUR said...

I wish you...cheese!

Betsy said...

I wish you wine with your Mama. . . .

Just Jane said...
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Just Jane said...

@Patty: I like that about you!

@Mama: Just a few more weeks and it is on! I will bring something new for you to try.